My rapist came into my work yesterday

I’ve worked at my current Job since October of last year. Since day one I’ve let my managers know that I can’t check him out if he comes in. We came up with a color code on the intercom if I need him removed and I hadn’t had to use it yet.

Yesterday 30 min before my shift ended, I was cleaning the cabinets by my register tidying up before I got off. I hear the ring of my little bell and turn to my register and say “hello would you like a bag today?” He said “yeah” the voice made my blood run cold, I look up from the belt and make eye contact. I could feel the color leave my face. I begin stuttering, shaking and the heart palpitations begin. Seeing him for the first time in 3 years was something out of one of my nightmares. I continued trying to do my fucking job just to get him in and out. The entire time I was getting flashbacks. His eyes took me back, his lips, everything. I literally couldn’t even think. My body started rejecting on me to the point where my joints stiffened and I trembled putting the bag on the counter. As soon as he left I collapsed my arms onto the counter and hyperventilated.

Since the day I began working there- I’ve been terrified of seeing him. Horrified. And it happened.