I dislike being pregnant A LOT.

I just found out I am pregnant for the second time. Yay. Only thing is: I hate being pregnant. Hated it the first time, hate it the second time. Don't get me wrong I love birth and I do for sure love the outcome, I just hate the state of being pregnant. I am only 6 weeks and I have 34 to go. If I think about that for too long I'll go nuts.

I hate the first trimester so much. I envy women without pregnancy symptoms. I am tired all the damn time, I feel nauseous all the damn time and I have a migraine 3 times a day. It is a nightmare. Especially while entertaining and caring for a toddler. Why the fuck did I complain the first time around? I could just rot on my couch and sink into self-pity. I can't do that now.

The second trimester is fine, I didn't mind it. The third is hell on earth. I was 35 kg heavier and waddling like a duck. It was awful and it was midsummer, so my feet and to be honest everything else swelled up like a balloon. And the groin pain was awful as well.

I hate not being able to consume nicotine for a VERY long time. I hate not being able to get a tattoo or getting my lips done if I wanted to. I hate not being able to drink an ice cold Red Bull or drinking as much coke as I want. Hell, I even hate not eating tiramisu. And do you know what I hate the most? the constant damn anxiety. Why are the doctor appointments 4 weeks apart? I want to know that my baby is fine like everyday.

I guess these are minor issues but I am pregnant and I am mad. Does anyone hate pregnancy as much as I do?