I absolutely hate being a nurse

First let me preface this by saying I'm sorry this is SUCH a negative post. I just need a safe place to rant. I hate being a nurse. I've been an RN for 3 years now. I'm only 25, but I'm miserable. My dream was always to be a high school English teacher but I didn't do it because everyone discouraged me due to low pay. If I would've followed my dreams at least I would've been happy, even if I was broke. Now I'm not only broke, but also miserable. Everyday I have to go to work I just cry. And even on my off days I'm constantly dreading having to go back again. When I'm at work I'm constantly thinking about and counting down how much time I have left. I've had 3 different nursing jobs and it's all been the same. It's not the specialty, it's not the people I work with, it's not management, it's just being a nurse. I simply hate it. It's not my passion, it's not my dream, I'm burnt out, I'm exhausted, and I'm just miserable. My mental health is at an all time low. I was an ER nurse for 2 years and I think I have PTSD from the things I've witnessed. I get horrific panic attacks and sometimes it's even hard for me to function. I've had to start many medications just to function. Everyday I'm just so mad at myself for choosing this career path and not the path I dreamt of. Everyday I think "what if I would've just followed my dreams?" I want to kick myself. This career has robbed me of my happiness, my patience, my faith in humanity, my kindness, my empathy, and my peace.