Wanting to hear to parents who are taking antidepressants

Hi everyone, I’m not going to yammer on too much - the short story is that I’m very mentally exhausted looking after an 11 month old and a husband with untreated severe anxiety. I was given anti depressants in the early months after having my baby but I didn’t end up taking them (I was able to manage my mental health fine without them) but I have hit a wall where I’ve just become emotionally unavailable to the people who need me… I just need more help to get back to the person I was. I’m just hoping to hear from parents who are taking SSRIs, what your experiences are and how you are going with it. Thank you x