I'm going to lose my shit if someone misgenders me again

I copped it all day at work. Estrogen is doing nothing. I can't present socially even travelling 200km+ a day for work. I have lost all my family. No friends. Look like a old man with my hairline at 22. I litterally was hitting myself because im a freak amd will never get perceived as a girl ever. Estrogen is doing nothing