ADHD, Grief, Seasonal Affective Disorder...how do people do this?

More of a vent than anything, but I'm wanting to know if anybody else out there has had to deal with this themselves and if they've ever figured out a way to manage it.

So I obviously have ADHD, but I'm also lucky enough to have seasonal affective disorder as well. Usually this presents as low energy, a lot more brain fog than usual, and a somewhat lower enthusiasm for things in general. Basically I would do a lot better if allowed to hibernate in the winter but we live in a society, etc. Lol.

However, the last 3 winters in a row I've lost people very close to me, and now it seems that on top of low energy my brain now had made the association of winter = grieving season. I know grief is a part of life, but I constantly feel like I'm going to cry at the drop of a hat, and it's starting to interfere with my quality of life.

I know emotions tend to be more intense for us ADHD'rs, but this really sucks. I don't know if anybody can relate, but if you can...I am so sorry. And how do you deal?