Dosing during divorce and depression

I committed to a 5ml/ day cycle and day 1, my husband asked for a divorce out of the blue.

Stats/Dose - Female Early 30’s - Fit, but fell off due to recent bout of depression I’m on week 2 of the 5 weeks I plan to do. I inject bicep, triceps, or deltoid. 5ml/Day - 5days on 2 days off.

I’ve struggled with chronic depression connected to Complex PTSD, and normally grief makes it feel like the bottom gave out on my life.

Life is a little chaotic, but I was and still am surprisingly okay.

Taking Cerebrolysin doesn’t feel like anything massive, but I feel normal. I’m sad some days, but I’m also okay and even happy some days. It’s surreal. I’ve never felt so emotionally okay ever in my life let alone during the ending of my marriage.

Normally I’d be battling suicidal ideations, anhedonia, deep depression, and complete loss of appetite.

I’m able to work just fine, and probably more productive than I’ve ever been. My boss said he’s noticed that I seem happier (he doesn’t know about the divorce), and my friends are pretty confused. One thing that’s interesting is I don’t really need caffeine. I drink coffee out of habit, but I’ve also forgotten to drink coffee sometimes and my day was just fine. No energetic highs, and absolutely no crashes.

I’m hesitant to call this a miracle, but I truly feel like I got my normalcy back. I’ve tried so many pharmaceuticals - Wellbutrin, all sorts of SSRIS. Psychedelics: Ayahuasca, 5Meo, Psilocybin, Ibogaine. I got a ton of “insight”, but I never felt this okay.