feeling stuck, idk what to do. ( rant/advice needed)

so as of now I am enrolled in a tier-3 PVT college in my state. I couldn't study jackshit in 11 and 12 ( family issues ). I heavily regret it. Its taking away from my college experience, I cant enjoy anything, I feel extremely depressed, I didn't even attend the freshers party or joined any clubs.

I didnt even give my 10% into my prep. I thought I would move on but I just cant. Everyday I wake up and think about the college I could've gotten if I gave my best, the life I would've gotten if I gave my everything.

I also don't like the fact that I am a day scholar, I would really like to get away from my home for college because of family issues. For once I would like to not wakeup at my home and worry about whats going on.

so the thing is, tomorrow I have my mid-sems. But today my father is saying ki I can take a drop ( earlier they didn't allow ).

now to think that I can score 98+ in jan session is being delusional, fuck given the rise in competition, I'll be more than lucky if I get 97.5+ in April session. so I dont have much hopes from JEE, but other exams like comed-k , MHT-CET, BITSAT is scoring well in them possible if I start now ? ill be okay with a tier-1/2 college except VIT MANIPAL KJSCE SRM and as long as its 100km away from my home.